My hope for you

Poetry speaks to our minds and hearts and is meant to communicate more than the sum of its words. It is an apt expression of our walk with the Lord. I encourage you to forward this link to those you love. I pray this poetry leads you into reflection and prayer but I also want to start a conversation. You, too, have something to share with others-not only in person, but also here. Your experience is yours to give away to build up and learn from others in the Body of Christ. Share the word that you hear, the experiences you have lived. We are all part of the New Evangelization.If you also want to contact me by email, feel free: genefirn@yahoo.com

Table of contents: October 7, 2012

Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Outsider

no say
I had no say
she was my daughter
but I had no say
whether she lived or died
how insane is that?
it sucks
I was goin' nuts
a lot of other guys didn't give a damn-
they took the easy way out- but
I wanted to take care of her
but her mom didn't
want me in her life
I loved her- especially after
I knew we were going to
have a daughter
it drove me crazy that
I could lose my baby
I wanted to be a Dad
I didn’t want anything
to happen to her
I felt so responsible-
we didn’t expect to get pregnant
we thought we were being careful
but things happen-
even in the best of circumstances-
then when we found out
everything fell apart
what I thought was a good relationship
turned out to be more one sided and
finally the truth came out-
she was leaving me and
with her went my daughter
she was so confused
depressed
it was agony watching her
close the door
without even saying goodbye
phone calls went unanswered
knocks echoed in an empty hallway
what if she didn’t want my daughter?
what if she felt she couldn’t handle it all?
what if she couldn’t bear
to give the baby up for adoption?
my daughter would die-
and me with her
even though everyone says
it’s the mother’s choice-
she was my baby too
she didn’t care about my feelings.
I felt so powerless
I tried praying for the first time
in a long time
I begged Him to save them
to help her Mom
to know I’d be there for her
if He cared at all for my daughter
to save her
if He was who He said He was 
He wouldn't let her die
I begged but
silence was my answer
only silence
nothing more
then one day I got the call
it was over
the deed was done
my baby was gone
I was numb
I couldn’t say anything
and hung up
why Lord?
why did you let this happen?
if you were so powerful and loving
supposed to be the Lord of all 
why didn't you stop her
from killing my girl?
why didn’t you do anything?
she was helpless
just a baby
and you let her be killed
what was wrong with you?
if only I could have talked with her mom
if I could have just showed her
how much I loved them
I didn’t understand and 
I was really pissed-
and frustrated
the why’s and if only’s kept coming but
nothing satisfied my questions
no answers were enough
and in the darkness
of my loss
for weeks to come
I could only cry and mourn
as I thought of
what could have been-.
the life we could have had together
a life I could only dream about
and imagine
but then somehow
someway sometime I began
to have a faint and lonely hope
that I would someday
be united with my girl
it would be in heaven
a redemption
we would finally be united
we would recognize each other
and I would hug my little girl
kiss her
pick her up and
she would screech in delight at
having her daddy
swing her ‘round and ‘round
toss her up in the air
and catch her
laughing.
and we would be together
please Lord
make it happen
someday
somehow   

Reflection/Discussion:
-Describe the father's experience.
-How would you answer his protestations to God?
-How common is it for the father to regret an abortion?Why/not?
-What would happen if more men took responsibility for the pregnancy? 
-Why isn't adoption a more frequent option to abortion?
-Why don't we hear very much about fathers who do?
-How can that change?                                                               
-What is the hope for fathers whose child was aborted?
                                                                         











Thursday, January 24, 2013

The Griever

the gift of life-
creation's marvel-
is Mine to give
intended or not
by those bestowed
this daughter of Mine is
made in My Image
imprinted with My likeness
sparked with My eternal flame
given a call to share My Love-
an intimacy unmatched-
only hinted at by
the coming together
of man and woman
in breathless wonder 
she has
her mother’s eyes
her father’s smile
but also 
My heart to serve
My will to love
imprinted in her soul
precious in My eyes
intended for heroic mercy
destined to bring hope to the
lonely and defenseless
life was torn from her before
seeing the light of day
or the dawn of night
what was designed to be
a time of knitting together
was instead
a tearing apart
unborn by a choice-
not her own-
made by the one closest
yet furthest from her
innate desire to live
she was rejected
with unjustifiable cause
lured by songs of
freedom’s false face
though intended for harm
I make all things new
though left to die alone
she is nearer to Me than
the womb from which
she was wrenched 
though treated as refuse
she is My precious treasure
though rejection
leaves the temporal unfulfilled
she finds eternity waiting for her
in My arms
singing lullabies of love
with tears of grieving
not only for her but
her mother as well for
each victim has died
one in body
one in spirit
having refused 
freedom's offering
ignored a proven truth
yet
Love conquers for all who
hear and respond to
My Word of New Life
a new choice
by a Grace received
and a reality embraced
a turning away from darkness to
grasp forgiveness
an offer of salvation
I hate the sin
but I love the sinner
so much so that I bore
her just punishment
by a sacrifice
without bounds
evil will find justice
unless a turning is turned
by a heart choosing
unmerited mercy over the
throne of self
but for now the result is the
cleansing of innocence
leaving only the promise of
healing and hope of
unending reunion
to those who
surrender in trust

Reflection/Discussion:
-How is God described in "The Griever"?
-What does the image of God "singing lullabies of love" convey?
-Why is the Mom a victim as well as the Daughter?
-What does "choosing unmerited mercy over the throne of self" mean?
-What does it mean that God hates the sin but loves the sinner?
-Why doesn't God just stop the evil of abortions?
-Whose responsibility is it to help stop abortions?
-What would you do if someone came to you for help?

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

The Regret

three
she would have been
three today
her deathday is
hardest to bear
my thoughts race
remembering
that date when
she no longer
grew within me
my feelings were
so  conflicted
especially 
after I saw her image
but I felt so alone
cornered with
no way out
they encouraged me
that it was for the best
it would be ok
I could get on
with my life now
only I found out
I couldn't
I couldn't stop
thinking about her
that she didn't
have a choice
her right to life was
severed
darkness began
to overtake me
I lost interest
in everything
if it wasn't for
my family I
wouldn't be here now
it was that way
far too long
then I heard about
a retreat
it was different
I found acceptance there
courage to face
my decision
I experienced forgiveness
from the Lord
myself and
my little girl
it was almost like 
she was praying for me
to turn back to the Lord
surrender my life
to follow Him
wherever He leads                                                                                 
and slowly
things began to change
I  resolved
to help others not to
make the same mistake
to bring His Love where
heartache reigns
I still regret it all
but when it gets
most difficult
like today
I join my sorrow
with His
for other Moms
to save their little ones
still
I have a hope
that the Lord will
bring us together again
this time
with open arms

Reflection/Discussion:
-Describe the Mom's experience.
-How common is it for women to regret their abortion?
-How does "The Regret" relate to "The Daughter"?
-How can some women NOT regret their abortion?
-What steps can a post-abortion Mom take to find peace?
-What part does forgiveness play?
-What is the hope offered in this poem?  Real or not real? Why?
-What can you do to support Moms who are thinking of aborting their child? 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

The Third Day

as the
third day dawned
sorrow's silent canticle
persistent yet
unwelcomed
finally spurred
me to
His resting place
longing for a comfort
that only He could impart
heartbroken
my tears vainly
sought to mend
the brokenness created
by Passion's spectacle
a loss daily endured
now made unbearable
by His disappearance
empty garments
enshrined the mystery
announced by
radiant messengers
added to my confusion
till my Devotion's identity
at first unrecognized
caressed  my name
revealing the tenderness
that forgave me so much
and now anointed me
with healing joy even
without my embrace
Love's call to
bring good news
purposed my soul
and wedded
my spirit to His
for now
all things
are made new

Reflection/Discussion:
-Describe Mary Magdalene's experience. 
-What does "sorrow's silent canticle" mean?
-What does "wedded my spirit to His" mean?
-What does "caressed my name" communicate?
-Do you think He "caresses" your name?
-If yes, how have you experienced that?
-If you don't know or don't believe so, why?
-Do you experience the joy of the Resurrection? Why/not?
-How can you grow in joy?

The Centurion


duty called
to oversee
a verdict fulfilled
for One
though shredded and crowned
in royal procession
who bore His sentence 
with quiet dignity to a
lonely and desolate finality
a spectacle of death
a lamb
midst the guilty
welcomed by the din of haughty jeers yet
overwhelmed by the silence of
a mother’s enduring
conflicted innocence deemed
this confused solution to One
whose unrequited forgiveness
so freely bestowed
found no home but mine
as darkness came
Light departed by
pierced efficiency
securing the last  
when water and blood together flowed
a new conviction fulfilled
my unknown need
a knowledge born
from death’s purchase
pointed me in a new direction as
reverent tenderness
lowered Him from His throne
then
after seeing Him in His mother’s arms
being caressed with final kisses and
washed by tears of mourning's dew
I was left longing for
something more

Reflection/Discussion:
-How does "The Centurion" make the crucifixion personal?
-What does "overwhelmed by the silence of a mother's enduring" mean?
-Describe Mary's response.
-What do you think happened to the Centurion?
- How does the Lord's Passion affect your walk with the Lord?


Saturday, January 5, 2013

The Benchmark

at the end of
your life
when it's all about
to be over ...and your
-money will
no longer matter
-next career move is
not going to happen
-challenging goals are unnecessary
-dreams will be undreamed
-words will no more be spoken
-familiar voices unheard
-when only the
past is present signifying
tomorrow's nonexistence
in this life... for...
that last day's task is to
remember
ponder
evaluate
the sum as well as
the parts of your life
what benchmark
would you use or
have others use
in this endeavor?
were you a success
or a failure...
not living up to your potential?
this gift of your life
passed on by particular
parents in particular
circumstances at
particular times and places
for X many years
in Y careers with
Z accomplishments
and alphabetic
relationships 
what did you do with
all those years...
measured on what
imaginary scale?....
the answer
if known now
how would that change things
if there was still time?
in reality
it matters not
what my standard is
nor yours either
for each one is relative
it is only
the Lord's benchmark
that is absolute for
He alone is the Judge-the
Source and End of all-
and He says....
His criterion is Love-
to Love Him above all-
wholeheartedly
faithfully and
not be double-minded 
then...
to Love others
in self-sacrifice
as He has loved you
only THAT brings the
true...good... and beautiful of
your life into fulfillment and
worthy of honor in
heaven forever
so then...
that being proffered
do you accept it as
your personal benchmark?
and if so then...
how is that going?
and what are you
going to do differently
from this day on?
if unaccepted...and
think about this carefully..
all eternity is  at
RISK

Reflection/Discussion:
-What is the point of "The Benchmark"? 
-Imagine that you are the person about to die,
 do you accept the Lord's benchmark?
-If yes, how does that affect your life today?
-What changes do you need to make?
-How can you ensure the changes "stick"?
-If not, then what?