Abba...The lie / accusation that "You can't be trusted because You let Jesus be Crucified / Suffer as
He did but if You really loved Him You wouldn't have let that happen and therefore since You willed that to happen to your Only-Begotten Son then I don't have a chance so...I can't trust You...I have to be wary of you...suspicious of Your motives"...I remember I brought that up to a priest a few years ago and he simply said that was a lie and not to believe it...but I feel like that lie is still hanging on to me and it
influences my 'vain dreads and anxious imaginations'...insecurities...cautions not to 'take risks' for You...what do You think about all that? I don't want to mistrust You...be cautious towards You...be
dreading what might come next from You letting suffering happen to me...Help me to see the Truth so I
can combat the lies and fears...the temptations to mistrust You...
THESE COME FROM THE ROOTS OF YOUR WOUND NARRATIVE...YOUR FEARS SURROUNDING YOUR DAD AND THE INSECURITIES DERIVING FROM THAT WOUND...
I KNOW YOU REALIZE IT IS THE ENEMY WHO MAKES THESE ACCUSATIONS FOR HE KNOWS YOUR WOUNDS AND FEARS BECAUSE HE IS SO INVOLVED IN ALL THE TERRORS IN EACH OF MY CHILDREN'S LIVES...SUFFERING...PAIN AND DEATH CAME FROM THE FALL AS YOU KNOW...THEY WERE NEVER MY INTENTION FOR MY BELOVED CHILDREN...THEY ARE THE CONSEQUENCES OF SIN THAT CAME FROM THE EVIL ONE'S HATRED OF ME AND ALL MY BELOVEDS...
JUST THINK FOR A MOMENT...HOW LOVING WOULD IT HAVE BEEN TO LEAVE ALL MY BELOVEDS TO SUFFER...DIE...AND BURN FOREVER IN THE FIRES OF HELL WITHOUT TRYING TO SAVE THEM?...WHAT KIND OF A FATHER WOULD DO THAT?...I CREATED MY CHILDREN WITH FREE WILL BECAUSE LOVE IS NOT LOVE UNLESS IT IS FREELY GIVEN AND RECEIVED...I OFFER GRACE TO ALL TO CHOOSE TO RETURN MY LOVE BUT MANY SPURN MY OFFER...MY LOVE...JESUS...MY ONLY-BEGOTTEN SON FREELY ACCEPTED MY SELF-SACRIFICING WILL TO SAVE MY OTHER CHILDREN AND SO HE FREELY BORE THEIR JUST PUNISHMENT AND CONQUERED ALL EVIL BY HIS LOVING SURRENDER TO MY WILL TO SAVE....HE RECEIVED MY STRENGTH TO LOVE AND THAT ISWHAT I OFFER TO ALL MY CHILDREN AS THEY FOLLOW JESUS BACK TO MY SIDE FOR ALL ETERNITY...
CREATION IS IN PERPETUAL WARFARE SINCE THE ENEMY SEEKS TO DESTROY AND PLUNDER OUT OF PURE HATRED AND PRIDE...AND IN THE END SHALL LOSE FOREVER
BUT SADLY HE WILL TAKE MANY WITH HIM BECAUSE...AGAIN...EACH IS FREE TO
CHOOSE...LIFE OR DEATH...LIGHT OR DARKNESS...SO...FOR YOU...DO NOT FEAR TO TRUST ME...ALL THE SUFFERING I ALLOW IS FOR YOUR GOOD EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT SEE IT MAYBE UNTILL WE ARE TOGETHER FOREVER...I AM WITH YOU...MY STRENGTH IS YOURS...MY SPIRIT ENABLES YOU TO BEAR AND CONQUER ALL SUFFERING...AND KNOW IT IS FOR THE KINGDOM...YOUR GOOD AND HOLINESS...MY GLORY WHICH I SHARE WITH YOU...SO...TRUST IN MY LOVE FOR YOU FOR ALL THINGS WORK FOR GOOD FOR THOSE WHO LOVE ME...
Thank you Abba...Jesus...for Your freely Loving and Saving me...all your Children...help me to
Trust...Surrender...Love You and serve Your Kingdom...freely and with all my heart...
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