The Subjugation

having enslaved you to porn the
Enemy clearly understands your
weaknesses... he is well-aware of the
wounding in your life which began
your journey into this rabbit-hole because
he orchestrated it from the beginning..
unbeknownst to you he cunningly
deals to you from a stacked deck laughing
while you go 'all-in' every time
expecting to win the jackpot only to
lose once again going deeper into
deception's debt...he.delights in your
delicious destruction as you
'take the bait' expecting so much
but gaining so little yet loving the
enchanting enticements despite
momentary hesitations which you
then sweep aside by unrestrained
proficient passions submissively
surrendering to exorbitant expectations-
bewitched once again- while he
licks his lips at your incessant
seduction by his temptations..
ensnaring you in a pitiful cycle of
spiritual suicide as you also willingly
cooperate in the artful destruction of
all that you hold dear yet putting up
with the bouts of shame / guilt which
leave you discouraged / depressed
at your vice-gripped  increasingly
passionless marriage but tellingly
not so much that you are willing to
let go of compelling portrayals of
alluring charms which bring-up
imagination's intrusively graphic
images at the most inopportune times
as well as nightly visitations while
you restlessly slumber next to your
now less-than-enticing wife for....
how can she compete with those
lovelies who get paid to beguile
you? then again...how would she
ever understand...especially the
really weird stuff....so...hush....
keep it under wraps...not a word..
makes things kind of awkward eh?
but...think about this..did you realize
there were demons involved in this
whole thing?....and not just one
but many who conspire flawlessly
to bolster your bondage through
using your memory and imagination
as their personal playground for
their XXX expert portrayals pushing
your cravings for the unattainable which
is exactly what will continue to entice you..
the groundwork for this snare was laid
long ago in a beautiful / bountiful
garden watched over by an unsuspecting
couple duped by Satan himself leaving
their progeny wounded for life...to
seek pride's fulfillment by self-centered /
autonomous decisions while their
passions chaffed under directives from
an intellect darkened by deception
as well as a will weakened by
evasive emotions eagerly seeking
gratification without any securities
thus leaving all of us vulnerable to
the craftiness of the Evil one who
lured you into seduction's grasp...but
this wasteland story had a starting-point-..
you did not go from purity to porn
overnight...from victor to vanquished
without being set-up for this plunge
into darkness...no ...and..much of the
following may be new to you..applying
to each according to their circumstances...
you were wounded by the sins of others
who were entrusted with your care...
sins of omission / commission...lied-to
by Satan and his minions....you then
believed those deceptions...vowed /
made decisions in response- sometimes
sinful ones- so everything would be on
your own terms to protect yourself...
you would be the master....only trust
yourself while pushing the pain way
down out of sight / consciousness and
do what you feel is best for you..
rebel at unwanted authorities...restrictions..
unknowingly.being submissively.led by
demons through well-worn paths of compensatory
searches finally arriving at your dreamland
destination of porn- the ready-made choice to
finally find relief from the pain...distractions
from carrying all that baggage...now
there's something to look forward to...
so sound the trumpets for your
subjugation now officially begins....but then..
the Lord reached out to you...revealed
His Love for you...you surrendered /
decided to follow Him...gave your
life to Him...repented of you sins..
resolved to Serve Him First...yet
here you are...sins you many times
repented for still plague you.....
but now you know the source but
maybe not the intricacies of how
you got here...that you need to
take to Lord who gives you His
Mother...Our Lady of Sorrows to
Accompany you through a Process
of Inner Healing / Deliverance...she
will bring you to Her Son's Sacred
Heart there to reveal your wounds...
who and how of sins against you...
their effects...the false  interpretations..
the vows / decisions ...conscious or
unconscious...Grace to forgive...
repent of your own sins which
entrenched thinking / behaviors
leading you into captivity...renounce
the specific demons and their lies
which have had a hold on you ..
rediscover the Truth.about yourself...
your True Identity in.the Lord....
knowing more deeply of His
Love for you....doing all this
with others with whom you can
fight together for freedom by the
Power of the Holy Spirit bringing
discipline from prayer and fasting....
you need help...ask the Lord for
direction...for the humility to be
transparent with brothers in the Lord.
no longer hiding your struggles... evading
the Light . lurking in the Darkness....
Jesus is the Victor...has defeated the Enemy....
Ask and you shall Receive...
Knock and it shall be opened to you...
Resist the Devil and he will flee but..
do the work...make the effort..
no longer run away from the pain but
face it with His Courage and Perseverance
because it will not be easy nor quick...rather
you shall be transformed by Grace and
Fire...burning away impurities in the
furnace of tribulation ...yet...in the end...
you shall Rejoice in His Mercy and Love
for He Shall Never Leave you Nor
Forsake you...for He is in the Process of
remaking you in His Image and Likeness
to be Holy- Set Aside for His Glory....so
Stand and Fight


Reflection / Discussion:

-How did you get here?
-What was you 'Wounding Process' ...sins against you...lies...vows / decisions that
  laid the groundwork for your subjugation to seduction?
-For more info: John Paul ll Healing Center. Tallahassee, Florida
-Find someone / group to support your journey to freedom.
-Pray daily / study Scripture / receive the Sacraments / go to Adoration.
-Find out how to deal with Demons.
-Talk with Mother Mary-Our Lady of Sorrows- when you are tempted...
  think about it...talking with Purity Herself about your desire for impurity... for
  she takes you directly into the Sacred Heart of Jesus.