The Journey

lost

desperate for

direction in the 

wilderness of life

without a destination to

confidently google

from wherever I

happen to be 

but now I can only 

search for an answer that

makes some sense of 

all this confusion which

overloads my abilities to

process conflicting information

hoping for hints of clues

that cast shadowy 

replicas of unfamilar shapes

upon the blank screen of

my dreams buried deep within

hidden there by
what I imagine to be a

quiet mysterious voice

long long ago even 

before my journey began

beckoning me to follow

a would-be guilding star
in the dismal darkness to a

worthy home that would bring
meaning in the midst of
my suffering existence

brused and battered by life

pushed to grasping for 

security in the 

din of isolation

made pointless by 

ephemeral goals while
so many around me
boast of trophies from
winning not-so-grand

triveal tournaments of

mundane pursuits

so useless

so annoying

so pitiful

it seems though that

someone must be

praying for me

because I am still here

continuing to search

day after day

sometimes without any

conscious decision

it is as if 

someone is pursuing me

like magnet to metal

a drawing force that is 

constant yet gentle

a wooing rather than a

sharp grappling
some say it is Jesus
I don't know
maybe it is
I'm not religious but
I'm not totally closed to the idea
though sometimes it feels like a
song of wishful thinking
within the winds of yearning

that stir in my heart 

when drifting into sleep

or crying for completion

in lonely dreams 

only to find myself 

awake to face 

another empty day

foraging for 

more of the same

besides depressing

it is all I can do to 

do the next right thing

in front of me

hoping to find hope

something significant that I

can embrace and in doing so

'fight the good fight'

as they say

for a higher purpose

even becoming-

though it is far beyond me now- a 

light in the darkness

Reflection / Discussion:

-How does / did this poem relate to your life?

-What helped you in your journey?

-What do you need now to support you?

-How can you help Jesus find others when they're not "religious"?

-Do you know others who travel this path?

-How can you support them?

-How can you become a light for others?