The Abandonment

letting go of
treasures long revered as
good and holy ideals
yet rarely
spoken about
though each
cut to the chase of my
need to control
according to
my own desires
my own will
for my present and future
my "who's who" of identity
too much of me
not enough of Thee
repentance bears the
message of peace
borne in sorrow
as forgiveness is received
when
Jesus is my Lord
He saves me from my idolatry-

making ministry my 

'be all and end all' 

the proof of my value but
my life is in His hands
I know He Loves me and
has a plan for my life but
I can't see it right now
there is no clarity and
hasn't been for
oh so long...
when questions about my past
aren't answered
when I don't understand
I can only surrender
not once but
incessantly in weakness
despite my questions
Trust is the issue -
a Faith beyond my abilities 
a Grace unearned yet gifted 

while storms buffet the
foundations of my life
all the more does
His Love fertilize 
my love to grow 

as trust is enriched 
by seeking Him alone
as my All-in-All
my only Life
my only Hope
my only Joy
received in
Thanksgiving
day by day in
abandonment to
His Loving Presence

Reflection / Discussion:

-What are the main issues in your faith life?

-What is the Lord teaching you?

-How are you responding?

-What support system do you have?

-If none, seek one that you are comfortable with.

-Don't try to live your faith life alone.