My hope for you

Poetry speaks to our minds and hearts and is meant to communicate more than the sum of its words. It is an apt expression of our walk with the Lord. I encourage you to forward this link to those you love. I pray this poetry leads you into reflection and prayer but I also want to start a conversation. You, too, have something to share with others-not only in person, but also here. Your experience is yours to give away to build up and learn from others in the Body of Christ. Share the word that you hear, the experiences you have lived. We are all part of the New Evangelization.If you also want to contact me by email, feel free: genefirn@yahoo.com

Table of contents: October 7, 2012

Tuesday, October 22, 2024

The Storm

in the midst of a Storm - a painful
adventure which challenges me this 
way and that - especially when the 
outcome is protracted and nebulous 
while feeling powerless to confidently
steer my half-sunken vessel into any 
of the meager options as anxious 
imaginations and vain dreads flash-
flood my battered beliefs as my
repetitive cries for relief and favorable 
resolution seem to be disregarded 
once again by the Master of my 
beleaguered ship as I find myself
fruitlessly striving for Peace by Trusting 
that - whatever the outcome and however
prolonged and violent the Storm -
both within and without - He WILL 
Calm the Sea...eventually...but in the 
meantime as the winds gust and the 
rain hammers down and the rolling 
waves lash dangerously high then 
brutally low...I wait... and wait... for 
an answer but only Silence responds 
the loudest to my desperate supplications 
and I am compelled to ask...Will I
Trust... the One who Trusted while bearing 
the Burden of Unending Guilt while 
Himself being Infinitely Innocent?...
the One Lone Light in a World Darkened 
by Sin?...the One whose Intentional 
Submission Bore the Rebellion of the 
Masses? reluctantly and without surprise                          
I once again conclude that my meager
efforts will never be sufficient to reap a 
Harvest of Kingdom-Fruit to fill my now 
depleted storeroom...that it can ONLY be 
by HIS Power / Grace - not by MY Gerbil-
Wheel Striving - that will enable me to...
- Confidently Surrender to His Purposeful  
Allowances and the Mysterious Designs 
of this Adversity that it is the Best Way 
for Him to Achieve His Good Ends in me 
even though veiled from sight and arduous 
to endure..
- Receive the Balm of Peace and let it
Soothe my fierce reactions and Quiet 
my questioning heart
- Join my hidden affliction to the Public 
Degradation of His Crucifixion - 
a Spectacle of Divine Intervention 
undergone for no other reason than 
His Extravagant Mercy / Love for me 
despite all my habitual self-preoccupation 
and pitiful whining - and thus sow 
Meaning into my anguish so that I
Become More Like Him and His 
Kingdom-Grace is bestowed upon 
those for whom I make this Storm a 
Sacrificial Offering as I in Trust keep 
my eyes fixed on the Master of Mercy 
and Rely on the Embrace of His Spirit 
to bring about whatever Good He 
Desires as well as His Peaceful Calm 
to the Storm within and - in His Perfect 
Timing - without 

Reflection / Discussion:
-What is your experience of being in a Storm?
-What lessons did you learn?
-How did the Lord use it in your life?
-How do faith and feelings differ . intermingle in a Storm?
-Why is Grace the key to unlocking the mystery of suffering?
-What does "Redemptive Suffering" mean?
-How can you be a support for someone you love who is going 
  through a Storm?



Thursday, May 30, 2024

The Heavy Burden

Jesus...my cross feels very heavy....
too heavy for me to carry today..
it's not always like this but now it
is...the loss of my dream of 'married 
love in the Lord'....of raising children 
who love and serve you...all gone 
through a sorrowful marriage and 
divorce...a lot of anguish and pain 
that is very difficult to carry...and yet 
still called to love...I wish the sorrow 
were over and a distant memory...
what do you think about all this..
my family...marriage and divorce..
my cross?

YOUR SUFFERING IS NOT IN 
VAIN WHEN JOINED TO MINE...
IT IS ONLY WITH THE STRENGTH 
OF MY SPIRIT THAT YOU CAN 
CARRY YOUR CROSS... ONLY BY 
GRACE IS IT POSSIBLE TO CARRY 
YOUR BURDEN AND HAVE IT BEAR 
FRUIT WHICH YOU MAY PERHAPS 
NOT SEE IN YOUR LIFETIME BUT
BY FAITH AND HOPE LINKED TO 
MY FRUITFUL PASSION...DEATH 
AND RESURRECTION YOU ATTAIN 
THE GOOD YOU SO DESIRE...IT IS 
GOOD THAT YOU KNOW YOUR 
WEAKNESS AND FEEL THE 
UNBEARABLE WEIGHT OF YOUR 
CROSS FOR IT IS ONLY BY MY 
POWER THAT YOUR BURDEN 
CAN BECOME LIGHT...IT IS ONLY
BY THE INFINITE POWER OF MY 
SPIRIT THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR 
YOU TO CARRY YOUR CROSS AND
HAVE IT BEAR FRUIT....IT IS ONLY 
BY MY SPIRIT OF LOVE THAT YOUR 
CROSS OF SORROW BECOMES YOUR 
CROSS OF LOVE AND THE  PEACE 
AND JOY OF MY RESURRECTION 
CAN REST UPON YOU,.SO KNOW 
THAT EACH DAY MY GRACE IS 
AVAILABLE TO YOU TO CARRY 
YOUR BURDEN WITH ME UP 
CALVARY'S HILL WITH A
STRENGTH BEYOND YOUR 
OWN AND A JOY AND PEACE 
WHICH IS BEYOND YOUR 
NATURE AS YOU TRUST IN 
MY LOVE FOR YOU AND YOUR 
FAMILY AND HOPE IN MY 
FAITHFULNESS AND DEPEND 
ON MY SPIRIT FOR ALL YOUR
NEEDS....SO ..ONE DAY AT A TIME..
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE 
ALL YOU NEED...WHATEVER IT IS..
IT SHALL BE YOURS....FOR MY 
GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU 
AND MY POWER IS MADE PERFECT 
IN YOUR WEAKNESS...YOU ARE 
NOT ALONE..

Lord Jesus...thank you for your Word
of encouragement....I trust in you...give 
me your Grace today to carry this cross...
to trust in your plan of salvation for my 
family...strength....peace and joy even 
in the midst of the burden....to remember 
You are with me.  to count on Your Spirit 
for all I need...to keep my eyes on You 
not me or my cross... Jesus...I trust in You

Tuesday, May 28, 2024

The Adventure

LISTEN TO MY WORD FOR YOU...

GRACE IS NEEDED TO ACT ON THE
DIRECTION GIVEN...COURAGE / BOLDNESS 
TO STEP OUT AND R I S K WHEN FEELINGS 
OF FEAR / DOUBT MAY STILL THEATEN AND 
THE TEMPTATION TO REMAIN SILENT IS 
STRONG...SO ALSO ASK FOR GRACE TO LOVE
THE OTHER WITH MY LOVE BECAUSE PERFECT 
LOVE DRIVES OUT FEAR - IF YOU DESIRE THIS TO 
BECOME A LIFESTYLE IT HAS TO BE HABITUAL 
AND THUS 'ONE DAY AT A TIME' IS THE BEST
WAY FOR THAT TO HAPPEN AND THUS TODAY
CAN BEGIN YOUR JOURNEY REMEMBERING
THAT MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU 
FOR MY POWER IS MADE PERFECT IN WEAKNESS...
YOU CAN START WITH OTHER BELIEVERS....
THEN STRANGERS...REMEMBERING THAT MANY 
WILL ACCEPT YOUR SINCERE OFFER TO PRAY 
FOR A NEED THEY HAVE.,.MANY WILL NOT
BUT A SIMPLE SMILE AND 'HAVE A BLESSED 
DAY' WILL SUFFICE FOR NOW...REMEBERING 
THAT FOR NONES THEIR GREATEST NEED IS 
TO RECEIVE THE GIFT OF SALVATION BY 
ACCEPTING JESUS INTO THEIR HEART AND 
THAT CAN START BY YOUR LOVING THEM 
WITH HIS LOVE   THUS..AT THE END OF THE
DAY...."WALKING IN THE SPIRIT" IS A LEARNING 
PROCESS AND AN ADVENTURE....IT IS TAILORED 
TO YOUBY THE SPIRIT....WHO KNOWS YOU 
INTIMATELY WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTHS  AND 
WEAKNESSES...EVEN YOUR DOUBTS AND FEARS...
AND WANTS TO FORM YOU INTO AN EFFECTIVE 
DISCIPLE ..OR PUT ANOTHER WAY ....AN EFFECTIVE 
LOVER OF AND FOR JESUS....SO START EACH 
"TODAY" ASKING FOR THE GRACES YOU NEED 
TO MAKE THIS DAY ALL ABOUT 'THEE NOT ME'...
TEACH ME ANOTHER LESSON ON HOW TO 
WALK IN THE SPIRIT...ASK THE HOLY SPIRIT 
TO "MOVE ME / LEAD ME / SHOW ME " WHO 
YOU WANT ME TO LOVE TODAY AND THE 
BOLDNESS TO DO SO...GIVE ME THE DESIRE 
TO SERVE / PARTICIPATE IN YOUR MISSION 
TODAY ..TO LET YOU USE ME TO EXTEND YOUR
LOVE TO THE ONE WHOSE HEART YOU ARE
DESIREROUS TO TOUCH TODAY... GIVE ME YOUR
"PERFECT LOVE" FOR THIS ONE YOU PLACE
BEFORE ME NOW AS WHEN JESUS ENGAGED 
THE WOMAN AT THE WELL...AND KNOW TOO 
THAT THERE IS MORE FOR YOU....SO THEN... 
ASK .SEEK... KNOCK...AND SO BE BLESSED...

The Jesus Prayers

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
have Mercy on me, a sinner.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Keep me in Your Presence. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Set my mind on You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Set my heart on You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Make me One with You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
I Believe in You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
I Adore You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
I Hope in You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
I Love You. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God 
I Trust in You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
I need You..
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God 
I depend on You.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Thank You for Your Love. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Thank you for Choosing me.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Thank you for your Mercy.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
Thank you for your Grace. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Be my Lord and Savior.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Be First in my life. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Be my Peace.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Be my Joy.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Fill me with Your Spirit.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Help me to Live in Awe of you
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Help me To Love with Your Love. 
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
I am Yours.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, 
Make my life always be about Thee not me.

Reflection / Discussion:

-The Jesus Prayer is meant to provide a simple
 way to praise / worship / Be in His Presence
 wherever you are and whatever you're doing.
-Which prayer touched your heart? Why?
-How can you make these prayers part of you daily life?
-Do you have any prayers you want to add to the list? Just do it!
-Simply Speak His Name in Lore.

Tuesday, April 23, 2024

The Gazes

I remember every encounter...each 
one a stepping stone leading to his 
final resting place in my heart...each
memory highlighted by unfamiliar 
feelings like when.. I couldn't believe
my eyes...in the midst of all he was
suffering...all that pain...every
miniscule movement a torture...
every breath brought no relief but 
simply a prophetic sign of more to 
come...even his eyesight was obscured
half-blinded by blood's steady stream 
from its thorny creche - a mocking 
symbol of his true identity and still...
with all that...he found me imbedded 
in the jeering sometimes simply curious 
crowd fascinated by the death spectacle 
of the King of the Jews..it was as if he 
had searched me out like I was a long
lost sheep hiding amongst a pack of 
howling wolves...it brought to mind the 
first time our eyes met months before...i
t was in another crowd but this time a 
friendly one...everyone was hungry not 
only for food to fill our stomachs  but for
his words which mysteriously fed our
empty hearts way out in the empty 
countryside...he was teaching things 
we never heard before when suddenly 
he stropped to break for food though 
there were merely scraps which somehow 
he miraculously multiplied and had
baskets and baskets left over...amazed 
yet confused I got up to leave but his 
gaze moved me to stay to find some 
kind of answer to even one of the 
questions swirling in my mesmerized 
mind....who is this man? how can he 
do that? his words are touching places 
in my heart that I didn't know existed...
everyone had an opinion -some said this..
others that...I only knew I had to keep 
searching for something more that I didn't 
have right now.....then there was another
crowd this time near Passover...but this
one was cheering him as he rode a colt 
into Jerusalem...waving palms thinking 
he was the Messiah even though he didn't 
claim to be a warrior king...again the gaze..
very strange...like he had expected that 
I would be there - a familiar face even 
though as yet we had never spoken to one 
another...now...this...horrific spectacle...
not what I ever expected for such a gentle 
miraculous person...totally innocent of 
their bogus charges and now planted 
between murderers and yet... even in all
his pain he found me...again that haunting 
gaze .but this time as I took steps toward 
him he cried out as he Finished his
Sacrificial Offering amidst his Mother's
mournful goodbye as thunder rolled and 
lightning cracked and darkness covered 
the mount and apparently the Temple's 
Curtain was Completely Torn as death
hushed the staring crowd left wondering 
if there could possibly be any more drama 
to what they just witnessed.....now...days 
later... on the road to Emmaus...unrecognized..
he turned up as a fascinating stranger totally
transforming Sacred Texts into pearls of \
Revelation about the Resurrected Christ 
till at fireside he gazed at me again and 
with a smile offered me the broken bread
with his nail-scared hand and in a Final 
Encounter bade me to join him in that 
Sacred Feast...now - even though he 
vanished -I know He is Alive ..He un-
veiled the eyes of my heart...then I knew
who He was and who I am in Him...He 
is my Lord and Savior and I am His forever...
reborn by his Spirit...on mission to witness 
for His Kingdom to a world broken by sin.... 
hungry for healing and the Bread of Life...
so...what about you? are you hungry for More?...
Ask...Seek...Knock...and it shall be yours...

Reflection / Discussion:

-Ask Jesus to show you times in the past when
  He has sought you out. What was happening then?
  What was your response?
-Do you want More in your life?
-By reading this poem, is He seeking you now? Why / not?
-Have you asked Him to be your personal Lord / Savior?
-If not...what is holding you back?
- Are you asking...seeking...knocking...for More?
-What does it mean to "be His Forever"?
-What does it mean to be "reborn by His Spirit'?
-Do you have a "mission in life"?
-Are you 'hungry for healing'?
-What is the "Bread of Life"?
-He is smiling at you now, how's that make you feel? 






.that same gaze
only this time it was followed
with a smile...and it was then
I know I was reborn...never
more to forget that gaze even
when it would be my turn 
on that cross because of him...

The Difficult Talk

Father...I don't want to have this talk...

WHY IS THAT?

I know you already know why so why don't You just tell me? 

BECAUSE YOU NEED TO OWN UP TO IT
YOURSELF FOR YOUR OWN BENEFIT...SO
SPIT IT OUT...YOU CAN DO IT...I'M GIVING
YOU THE GRACE...BUT AHHH...FOR GRACE
TO WORK IT HAS TO BE FREELY RECEIVED...
YOU KNOW...THAT OLD "FREE WILL" THING...
SO...NOW WHAT?...WHY DON'T YOU COME 
BACK WHEN YOU'RE READY?...

No...I'm sorry for being such a little so and so...
Ok...I'm angry and frustrated at Jim...it's so 
irritating that he never seems to change...he's 
always the same...never really wants to share
anything personal or go beyond the superficial...
he hardly ever shows appreciation and is so 
self-absorbed...it's so irritating...

SO WHAT NOW?

what do you mean?

WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT 
ALL THIS?

I don't know....how about changing him?

SO YOU WANT ME TO TAKE AWAY HIS FREE
WILL SO YOU WON'T FEEL SO IRRITATED? 

O Father...You are too much!...

HOW'S ABOUT YOU ASKING FOR THE GRACE 
TO LOVE HIM WHERE HE'S AT AND PRAY FOR
HIM TO COME CLOSER TO ME?  CHANGE IS 
DIFFICULT FOR HUMANS....INCLUDING YOU...
JIM HAS HIS OWN ISSUES AS DO YOU...NOW 
YOU SEE WHAT I DEAL WITH EVERYDAY
WITH EVERYONE...THINGS CAN CHANGE FOR
EACH PERSON WHEN THEY ADMIT THEIR 
WEAKNESS AND ACTUALLY WANT TO  CHANGE
BUT THAT IS DIFFICULT BECAUSE OF THEIR
FALLEN NATURE AND IS DIFFERENT FOR 
EACH PERSON...SO...WHAT ABOUT YOU?
DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE?...

Well...I'd rather see Jim change...

SO YOU WON'T FEEL SO IRRITATED AND 
SORRY FOR YOURSELF? BETTER FOR 
YOU...LESS OF A HASSLE...IS THAT IT? 

Well...to be honest...yes...

HOW'S THAT SOUND TO YOU?

Pretty self-centered.

IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?

No.....

SO NOW WHAT?

Help me Father...to love Jim where he's at...
serve him where he's at...be patient...persevere..

WALK IN HIS SHOES...YOU HAVE NOT DEALT
WITH THE THINGS HE HAS AND IS DEALING
WITH...LIVED IN HIS CIRCUMSTANCES...PRAY
FOR WISDOM FOR HOW YOU CAN ENCOURAGE
HIM...LOVE HIM...WHAT WAS IT THAT YOU 
WERE TALKING ABOUT AT YOIUR MEETING
THE OTHER NIGHT?

Accompaniment...

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THAT?

Not a coincidence was it?

NO...WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THAT 
FOR JIM?

Maybe I should be more active in seeking You for 
what I need to accompany him? 

LIKE WHAT?

Like everything...everything we've been talking about...
but please...forgive me for my self-pitying and whining
and not for my heart to change and what Your Will is 
for Jim and how I can encourage and accompany him on
his journey...

I KNOW IT GETS DIFFICULT AND FRUSTRATING AT
TIMES...MAYBE A LOT OF TIMES...BUT THERE IS 
GRACE FOR WHATEVER YOU NEED...WHETHER IT'S 
WISDOM..PATIENCE...PERSEVERENCE...LOVE...GRACE
NOT TO JUDGE OTHERS BUT TO ACCEPT THEM WHERE 
THEY'RE AT...FOR A CHANGE OF HEART...I AM READY
TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED BUT YOU 
MUST ASK AND RECEIVE...I DO NOT FORCE YOU 
OR ANYONE ELSE TO SERVE...

Sounds pretty complicated

YES...BUT YOU CAN HANDLE IT...IT IS GOOD FOR YOU
TO ADMIT YOUR STRUGGLES...MANY STRUGGLE
UNTIL THEY ARE WORN DOWN AND NEEDLESSLY
PAY THE PRICE.. MANY MORE REFUSE AND GO THEIR 
OWN WAY...AND WE KNOW WHERE THAT LEADS TO...
SO...BE AT PEACE AND ASK...SEEK...KNOCK...THERE IS
GRACE TO ACCOMPANY...IF YOU CHOOSE TO DO SO...
AND GRACE TO DO THAT AS WELL...

Thank You Father for listening to me. I need it all starting
right now...forgive me for my sins and give me all the 
Graces I need to serve Jim in the way he needs and especially 
Mercy for me and Jim as well

Reflection / Discussion:

- Why do we need to 'own up to our weaknesses'?
What is your experience in struggling with the weaknesses of others?
- How does 'free will / grace' work in relationships / in your life?
- Why was it difficult to have this talk with the Father?
- What does 'accompaniment' mean?
- How can you have this kind of a 'talk' with the Father?
- Do you think it's possible? Why . not?
- How does this talk help you in your relationships?










Monday, January 22, 2024

The Ingenious Decption

taking offense at objective facts -                
even when they are presented simply...              
clearly...respectfully with no other                                                              
intention than love of the other...                       
desiring the healing good of self-
acceptance as Created by their                  
Heavenly Father - is an ingenious                
deception as if you are disrespecting                
the receiver by 'hatefully' contradicting 
their cherished yet totally subjective                   
cornerstone of their confused identity 
system nonsensically and sadly 
constructed upon ever so shifting 
sands of disoriented feelings lived 
out daily in emotional decision-making 
the fruit of which has logically led to 
harvests of personal misery while 
clinging to delusional distortions of 
reality fiercely asserted yet erupting 
in endless hours of insecurity and 
eternal anxious imaginations of self-
preoccupation and yet now here you 
are having the audacity to question 
their otherwise affirmed identification
hoping they may see the light of reality 
through the fog of deception and help 
lead them to begin a new journey to joy /
peace by realizing that their true / rock-
solid identity is a Beloved Child of God 
Made in His Image and Likeness and by
Grace a Beloved Disciple of Jesus Filled 
as a Temple of the Holy Spirit and from 
Conception Created with God-given DNA 
all of which opens the door of meaning /
purpose in this life and Eternal Joy in 
the next...but predictably...you are  accused
of having the unmitigated gall to suggest 
they read an article which presents logical 
and robust scientific arguments contradicting 
their subjective feelings of self-identity 
which though humanly / biologically 
impossible to change are aided and abetted 
by a life-sentence of prescription drugs and 
proven by superficial external indicators 
and vehemently purported by preferred 
pronouns and last-but-not-least radically 
ratified by irreversible mutilating medical 
procedures - all distorted attempts of so-called
'gender affirming care' - carried out by 
the now defunct 'do no harm' Medical 
Practitioners - which if not offered - are 
considered disrespectful / reprehensible 
leading supposedly to suicide and therefore
condemned vociferously and so you 
should stop with the offensive suggestion
that they consider an alternative solution 
of Therapy as well as a Spiritual Awakening 
which is so contrary to their now entrenched 
lifestyle and a 'carpet-bombing' to their 
indoctrinated  identity infrastructure where 
true is false and false is true and the abnormal 
is normalized so often initiated at a vulnerable / 
insecure age by agenda-driven ideologues 
masquerading as empathetic Counsellors only 
interested in introducing / guiding gullible 
minors in to an 'exciting journey of self-discovery' 
yet hidden from their parents who in many 
instances will lose custody if are found to not 
support their child's transition who BTW 
is too young to buy tobacco or alcohol...vote...
get married...get a credit card...have a resume...
start a career....drive a car... get a mortgage...
be a marine...buy medication and yet can decide 
which of the plethora of genders they feel they 
are today and maybe change tomorrow only then to  
make life-long alterations to their bodies leading 
for many to a regret-filled / painful de-transition 
in the future...yet...you are the one accused of 
abuse by refusing to bow down to the Identity 
Idols by not endorsing their hallucination / 
self-mutilation / self-destructive fantasies...so..
stop with the 'love-talk' and professed concern 
for their 'true happiness and eternal welfare' 
because it is so 'hateful' to 'attack' these courageous 
children with so-called 'scientific data' which are 
so hurtful /embarrassing / having no place in their 
enlightened world of a new age / life-saving 
gender adventure in which you are not welcomed 
to have a voice nor place at the table since you are 
obviously a horrible / abusive bigot who spreads 
propaganda that only leads to despair and death...
so...off you go or we will call the thought-police 
to serve your - hopefully - never-ending sentence 
of public humiliation / isolation / cancelation...
and there you have it...all in all...an ingenious 
deception...and the demons love it...

Reflection / Discussion:

-Define True / False...Objective / Subjective...Real / Imaginary
-Is this description accurate or a fantasy?
-Why? What proof can you offer?
-What is happening in Canada...Great Britain...Netherlands about this subject?
-When / where / who started all this?
-What is the process of 'de-transition'? 
-Put faces / biographies on those de-transitioning.
-How does social media play an crucial role in all this?
-Why do you still have your children in government schools?

 




Tuesday, December 5, 2023

The Downsizing

This is your Official Notice - 
Like it or not...Believe it or not.- 
and you probably would rather 
not think about it this way but 
here it is anyway....you will be 
Downsizing your Primary Residence -
whatever that might be right now -
and it'll go something like this...
house...apartment...room...bed...
and finally.....Coffin / Urn - and
Nope...you won't need all those 
expensive things you're so proud of...
cars...boats...vacation home...
fancy fashions...won't need those 
golf clubs...uh uha..no room for 
all those trophies you spent your
life striving after...maybe you'll be 
in a few fading pictures in someone's 
photo album whenever it's taken out 
of it's dusty closet space and get a 
few comments - hopefully pleasant 
ones -  but you won't notice anyway - 
you'll be in your tiny resting place...
oblivious....and Oh BTW....it could 
go from house to urn like...BOOM!! 
Yes it could..- not quite the Downsizing 
you had in mind eh? I'd say 99.9% of 
us don't think this way but nevertheless 
it actually is happening now   someplace
somehow with someone but then   we're 
ALL in one stage or another of Downsizing
to our Final Tiny Resting Place aren't we?...
Yep...Downsizing...So.. Question...You 
Ready for that? Because It's Coming...
maybe sooner than you think.....So...let's 
talk about 'Then what?" -  Realities that 
are Crucial to Address Now  - before it's 
too late - what's left of your physical body 
will be in your Final Tiny Resting Place 
BUT your Soul - that which makes you...
YOU...will - FOREVER - be either in 
the Bliss of Heaven or the Fires of Hell -
Everything in THIS life is temporary..
fleeting...passing...the NEXT Life is 
Eternal...and HOW you live in this life 
will determine WHERE you live in the 
next...Who decides that?...the Judge...
Jesus...the One Offered by the Father to 
take your sins upon Himself - Purely
out of His Personal Love for you and
pay their Just Punishment by His Death 
on the Cross  but then Rose to New Life 
and Offers that Eternal Gift to you if 
ONLY you Choose to Repent and Follow 
Him in THIS life...All the Injustices of 
this life will be Reconciled in the Next...
There will be Justice for ALL...But...
NOW is the time for Mercy / Forgiveness 
while you still have the Opportunity to 
Ask and Receive...so...Question....
ARE YOU READY TO BE JUDGED?
you can not believe any of this and 
go to hell first class...OR you can ..
Repent for your sins...Ask Forgiveness  - 
Give them to Jesus and end up in Heaven...
so What's it going to be?...so...while keeping 
Downsizing in mind and realizing that 
'not to choose is actually choosing'...Ask 
yourself...Am I ready to meet Him face 
to Face? Because then it will be either 
Heaven or Hell...it is THAT STARK...
Light or Darkness... Joy or Pain...Love 
or Hate...Jesus or Satan...Don't Wait to 
Decide because...it might be BOOM!....so
NOW IS THE TIME OF SALVATION... 

Reflection / Discussion:

- How does John 3: 16-18 relate to this poem?
- Describe what 'Downsizing' means in this poem?
- Describe your feelings after you've read this poem?
- What have you been striving after in life?
- Where does Jesus fit in?
- What stage are you in?
- Why is 'not choosing actually choosing'?
- What does it mean to Choose Jesus as your Lord and Savior?
- How should you nourish this Relationship each day?
- A Simple Prayer of Commitment: 'Lord Jesus, Thank you for the Gift of Salvation...I ask your 
  Forgiveness for all my sins and I ask you to be my Personal Lord and Savior. Help me to Follow
  you Faithfully by the Power of your Holy Spirit. I Love you and desire to be with you Forever'

 

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

The Demonic Sliding Scale Strategy

OK...let's review the Battle Plan for
all you who are being assigned  new 
targets after a well-deserved break... 
most of you were successful in guiding
your previous assignment to their fiery 
destination...others - a relatively small 
percentage - not so much but a valiant 
effort nonetheless....circumstances keep 
changing so we'll begin by reviewing 
some basic facts on the human's nature as 
well as our assessment of their present day 
Culture through which your targets must 
navigate and hopefully 'crash and burn' as 
the humans say...first of all...you'll recall 
the human's fallen nature with all those 
delicious characteristics at our disposal of 
which you must take full advantage if you 
are to succeed in your diabolical mission - 
officially termed "Concupiscence" which 
simply means a proclivity to sin from 
disordered emotions as well as a darkened 
intellect and hence easily deceived as well 
aa a weakened will prone to being manipulated 
by said feelings - a 'pre-packaged meal' that 
simply needs to be 'heated up' to consume 
especially if your target becomes a Dedicated 
Follower of the Enemy...the next aspect is their 
Culture / World which is created by the elite 
fallen humans who are - for the most part -
under our control and we can use to create toxic 
environments detrimental to the Enemy's goals - 
eg education...media...entertainment...politics...
where we can literally pressure / harass / inculcate / 
force our values on top of the Enemy's Values... so..
that leads us to today's topic what I call our 
'Sliding Scale Strategy' for waging  Spiritual War 
against the Created Humans of our - unfortunately- 
Superior Foe...ready? it goes like this...the farther 
the target is from the Enemy...the less we have to 
do to gain a dark victory...but on the other hand...
the closer they are to the Enemy the more intense 
and devious must be our efforts - simply meaning 
eg. if the target has virtually no interest in the Enemy
or is seeped in habitual sin - in other words 'enslaved' - 
your main concern is simply 'maintenance'- ie. keeping 
them preoccupied / obsessed with themselves and their 
proclivities - especially the 'deadly ones' - as well as 
taking precautions to keep the Enemy's devotees away 
from the target - here Culture has a vital role to play..
more about that in a bit...then there's the class of 
semi-devotees who are somewhat / now and then / 
very-distracted-by-the-World Church attendees 
who have nothing really life-changing going on - 
the Enemy calls them the 'lukewarm' - which BTW 
is a pretty good description - for these targets there's 
a little more work involved to continually make sure 
they don't go deeper into things like 'repentance' /
'commitment' / 'daily prayer life' / 'personal relationship'...
for them I'd say keep distracting and deceiving eg. 
getting them to call 'good evil and evil good' or what 
is 'true false and false true'....really,,, if you can't get 
them 'cold' then just keep them 'warm' and not get 'hot'....
so put a stop to anything the Enemy tries to do to get 
them to whole-heartedly follow Him like 'resurrecting' -
pardon the pun - no offense - past wounds / sinful habits 
etc as well as stirring-up their involvement in Cultural 
matters which I will elaborate in a minute....and lastly 
there's the 'Devoted Disciples'... ones who have resolutely 
taken up their Cross to Emulate the Enemy...now those 
you really have to harass everyday in everyway you 
can think of...whatever it takes to get them distracted 
and hunkered down in their 'family foxholes' - so use 
the Culture to go after them - and here I will elaborate - 
where wombs are dangerous...darkness masquerades 
as light...schools promote preposterous pronoun propaganda 
for kiddies desperate for affirmation...a Culture where
power controls speech / behavior...lovely innocence is
Groomed and sensuality is the epitome of happiness - 
and then...if we can Terrorize the Enemy's Leaders 
into betrayal by submission - sometimes by simply 
keeping silent - we win... for as you know fear is 
our go-to weapon so therefore seek to restrict their 
influence to their Church Buildings and out of the 
Culture...fear...fear...fear...- basically Persecution or 
as they now say 'Being Cancelled' that'll give us the 
cover we need....remember...you can lose a battle but 
wining the war is the key - that's your goal: Eternal Fire!...
and, lastly, a good rule of thumb is the 'more me than 
Thee' principle...get them to daily concentrate on their 
own needs / worldly goals like 'success'...'happiness'...
'fulfillment'...or just plain ol' problems...but whatever 
the case...always make it 'me...me...me... and not Thee...
Thee...Thee'...ie the Enemy....that's always a great 'open 
door' to go down the 'rabbit hole' of self and can lead to 
a plethora of  possibilities. - 'Temptations' as the Enemy 
calls them but 'Opportunities' for us - actually the same 
ones we use for the 'lukewarm' but with a lot more 'Intense 
Imagination'...remember though...you have their files to 
research their weaknesses and histories so...keep poking 
them and don't let up especially when they get discouraged
because then it's either...persevere or give up - and we 
know what WE want! then lastly - and this applies to 
everyone on the Scale - constantly make them believe 
that they 'have a lot of time left' so they're in no rush 
to change because then...Surprise!!...Time's up!! Got ya!!
so...there you have it...the 'Sliding Scale Strategy'...not 
perfect but it works...a lot...but again...be Careful...the 
Enemy is Infinitely Stronger / more Powerful /Smarter / 
and knows the humans better than we do and - most of all -.
Loves them - especially Communing with them daily - so 
therefore never gives up offering that 'Grace' stuff...but...
still...we've got a lot going for us...so...come up and receive 
your new assignments then...GO GET'M!!

Reflection / Discussion:
-Describe in your own words the 'Sliding Scale Strategy'.
-What is the 'Human Condition'?
-Where do you fit into the 'Sliding Scale'?
-How does one become a 'resolute' follower of Jesus?
-What are you doing to grow in your relationship to Jesus?
-How are you reaching out to others on the 'Sliding Scale'?
-What changes is the Spirit leading you to make in your Spiritual Life?



Monday, May 22, 2023

The Spiritual War

the stakes couldn't be higher for the 
Spiritual War in which we are 
automatically involved merely by 
our human existence...if you win...
it's heaven - but .if you lose...it's hell...
both are forever...no turning back no 
second chances...when you die - and 
you WILL die and BTW relatively soon..
'you do not know the day nor the hour'...
you will be Judged by Jesus on how you 
have chosen to live your life...it is as 
Sacred Scripture says in Sirach 15:15-17 
"If you choose, you can keep the 
commandments, and to act faithfully is 
a matter of your own choice. He has placed 
before you fire and water, stretch out your 
hand for whichever you choose. Before 
each person are life and death, and whichever 
one chooses will be given them." simply
speaking, how you choose to live NOW in 
this life is the Warfare you are involved in -.
but Satan - your Enemy - the liar / deceiver /
murderer- is as they say 'out to get you' and 
is working full-time to destroy your life and                      
drag you to hell...sound scary?...well...that's
because it is... so just to be clear...if you don't 
believe you are in a Spiritual War - you're losing - \'
no God?...losing...no devil?...losing...no heaven?
losing...no hell?...losing...everyone goes to 
heaven?...losing...you're a 'good person' / 'nice' but 
have your own 'truth'?...losing...no one's going 
to tell you what to do or not do... thankyou? 
losing big time....so...are you winning or losing?...
if you think you're wining however...a word of 
caution...do not be overconfident...your Enemy 
doesn't give up...you can still fall away...it's not 
'once saved always saved'...remember...it IS a War..
humanity was originally Created in Union with
the Father but was then deceived by the Evil One and 
Chose to seek their own way of life - not the Father's 
Way - to decide for themselves right and wrong / good 
and evil...and as a consequence of their Original Sin
humans were thence oriented to evil by having
disordered desires - everything centered around 
"me...me...me"...a darkened intellect subject to 
deceptions and a weakened will easily swayed  by 
those same fickle feelings all the while living in a 
rebellious world / culture hostile to the things of 
God and dominated by Satan's deceptions / values 
tempting clueless humans into destructive habits 
of deadly sins - pride...envy...lust...greed...anger...
gluttony...sloth - all leading into pits of darkness... 
seems pretty formidable doesn't it?...that's because 
it is...however....on the side of Light / Life is 
GRACE...Jesus is LORD / SAVIOR...it is Jesus 
vs Satan - BUT. they are not equal...Jesus is God,,,
Satan is a creature - more powerful than humans
but a creature nevertheless and Jesus  by His 
Death and Resurrection has already conquered 
sin / death / Satan and has provided The Way to 
your Victory - Eternal Life / Joy / Peace / Love - 
but ONLY by your choice can you share in it...
Now....If you think you haven't chosen yet you 
are losing because 'not to choose is actually a 
choice'...but then you can simply choose to start 
winning - Repent...turn away from your sin...and 
Believe -.Live - the Gospel...Choose to follow 
Jesus as your Lord and Savior...ask to be.be filled 
with the Power of His Holy Spirit to start living a 
dedicated life of prayer and making His Word 
part of your daily life...start 'putting to death the 
deeds of the flesh'...Love Jesus above all...Carry 
your Cross by laying down your life in service to 
others.. find supportive relationships with fellow 
believers....resist temptations and the lies of the Evil 
One...Be an Intentional Disciple...Remember...
Before you is fire and water...Light or Darkness...
Life or Death...Choose NOW - before it is too late...

Reflection / Discussion:
-What is the Spiritual War?
-Where in you personal life / culture do you see the Choice?
-Start making the necessary changes in your life to support your Choice.
-Is it being talked about? Why / not?
-Find the support you need from others who have chosen to 
 follows the Lord even if it means changing parishes.
-Be disciplined in a daily prayer time / Scripture reading and
 a healthy Sacramental Life.
-Sample Commitment Prayer: "Jesus, please forgive me for not choosing you, for all the sins I 
 have committed, I give my life to you. I Choose to follow you as My Lord and Savior. Pour
 out your Holy Spirit upon me to help me follow you faithfully day by day. Thank you for 
 your Love and Mercy. I Love you and give my whole life to you:. 
-
 





Monday, April 24, 2023

The Regrets Dialogue

 

Lord Jesus.....I can't seem to shake these regrets...
they keep bothering me...I feel so bad about them...
I try not to think about them but they just  keep popping
up sometimes out of the blue...I've asked you for 
forgiveness but I can't forgive myself?  Why am I so 
adamant @ beating myself up every time I think them? 
what's up with that?

YOU TELL ME...
.
Well,.. I think it's because I did all those things...or in this case, I DIDN'T do what 
I SHOULD HAVE done so I SHOULD be the one who pays the price.
and, even though I can think of reasons why I SHOULD forgive myself,
I can't because that'd be like giving myself a pass and minimizing the harm
I did even though I wasn't aware of it at the time...

GOT A LOT OF SHOULDS THERE....BUT I AGREE...
SOMBODY HAS TO PAY...

right....but it's not working...why is that?

YOU TELL ME

this is so frustrating...why don't you just change me and fix it all 
so I don't have to deal with this anymore?..

IT DOESNT WORK THAT WAY...I DIDN'T 
CREATE YOU FOR THINGS TO BE DONE LIKE THAT...I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH 

what do you mean?

LOVE DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY OTHERWISE IT'S NOT LOVE..
.
please explain...

I CREATED YOU WITH YOUR OWN "SPACE" IF YOU WILL, AND I 
RESPECT THAT...I DONT "INVADE" ANYONE'S SPACE...YOU ARE A FREE PERSON 
AND I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU SO I SIMPLY "OFFER" 
YOU ALTERNATIVES FOR YOU TO ACCEPT OR NOT..
.
even if what I choose is bad for me?

YES..
.
That doesn't seem fair...

WHATS NOT FAIR ABOUT IT?

well....I might be hurting myself and others...

AND? .

you know....why not just stop me?

I JUST TOLD YOU WHY..
.
but what about all the consequences of my sins?...
and not just for me but for those I sinned against?

I KNOW...BUT THERE'S EVEN MORE TO IT THAN YOU REALIZE..
.
hmmm...you know...something I have to say...you get a lot of blame for
all the bad stuff...I mean sins...that people do...like it's YOUR fault.
because YOU didn't stop them.....

I UNDERSAND...PEOPLE ARE FREE TO THINK WHAT THEY WANT...

so...why don't you just 'set the record straight'?

THEY WOULDN'T ACCEPT IT ANYWAY AND, BESIDES, 
LIFE DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY...REMEMBER...YOU'RE FREE...

why are you doing all this...I mean communicating like this...like you're right here????

BECAUSE I AM....I'M ALWAYS "RIGHT HERE" EVEN  IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO BE...
THAT'S HOW I CREATED THINGS...AND, BESIDES, THIS IS NOT JUST FOR YOU.  
WHO DOESN'T HAVE REGRETS?...THIS IS FOR THEM AS WELL....

so...why me?

WHY NOT YOU?

well....I'm not the "holiest" guy out there.
..
NO...BUT YOU'LL DO JUST  FINE...YOU'RE OPEN TO WORKING THROUGH 
ALL THIS AND YOU HAVE THE ISSUES I WANT TO ADDRESS SINCE EVERYBODY
HAS THEM.....

you mean "regrets and performance" issues?

YOU GOT IT

that's tiring to even think about especially when I feel like 
I don't know how to resolve it all...

I KNOW...
.
it's like it's never ending...like a gerbil wheel...it keeps turning and turning 
going nowhere but just creates more and more
frustration / anxiety./ pain.. and never "reaches its goal"

AND WHATS THAT?

hmmm...perfection??

YOU MEAN "YOUR" IDEA OF PERFECTION....

well...what "i" want...

HMMM...SEEMS I'VE HEARD THAT SOMEWHERE BEFORE...

so you mean we're back to the start of this dialogue?

YOU TELL ME...ITS YOUR ISSUE...I'M HERE TO HELP YOU 
REACH WHATS BEST FOR YOU AND NOT JUST WHAT YOU WANT....
THOSE AREN'T ALWAYS THE SAME THING..SOMETIMES.WHAT'S BEST 
FOR YOU AND THOSE AROUND YOU IS NOT WHAT YOU WANT...

this is kind of frustrating...more circles.....
.
WHY'S THAT?

why don't you just give me what I want?

I AM

not really...

WHY?

because it's not really giving me the results I want.
..
WHAT'S THAT?

ahh...satisfaction...justice...peace...

IT CAN'T..

meaning...?

YOUR OFFENCES...WHETHER THEY'RE COMMISSION  / OMISSION
ARE NOT JUST THIS / THAT INSTANCE HERE AND NOW...WITH FINITE EFFECTS...
THEY'RE MORE THAN THAT.
..
what do you mean?

YOU'RE NOT JUST OFFENDING THE ONE IN FRONT OF YOU...
YOU'RE OFFENDING ME AS WELL...
.
how's that?

YOU ARE PART OF MY CREATION...WITH MY ORDER OF REALITY....
I'VE GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW IN ORDER
FOR YOU TO FLOURISH IN LOVE...ITS NOT 'YOUR' ORDER THOUGH 
THAT IS WHAT YOU'D LIKE IT TO BE...
YOU WANT TO BE IN CHARGE...THAT'S WHAT STARTED ALL 
THIS IN THE BEGINNING..
..
you mean Adam and Eve and the Fall?

YES....

that whole pride / rebellion thing?

YOU GOT IT

oh...you mean all this is rooted in my pride?

YOU TELL ME..

It feels like it...

HOW?

well...like I'm the one who says what is and is not...what should be or not...
I'm the one in charge who decides not YOU...who should pay and how...
how to fix things or if it should be fixed at all....it feels like it's almost uncontrollable...
like it has a mind of its own...almost more than I can handle...

ALMOST???

OK....good point...so....now what?

WHAT DO YOU WANT?

I want this to be done...over...now...

SO...WHY ISNT IT?

because I "can't do it"...it's too much though I keep trying and failing...
you know...Performance...

YOU MEAN THE FINITE TRYING TO FIX THE INFINITE???

yeah...I suppose...
.
LIKE "you're" GOD NOT ME??

I guess..

WELL...THATS IMPOSSIBLE BUT YOU KEEP TRYING...

soo...how does this change?...that is assuming that's what I want 
to have happen.....which seems to "go against the grain^

THATS BECAUSE IT DOES...IT'S  A  BATTLE ALL THE WAY....
WHO'S IN CHARGE??  AND YOU GET WHAT YOU CHOOSE...
IT'S CALLED FREEDOM..
.
I don't like all this...why can't it just be like I want it to be?

YES...I KNOW....BUT YOUR WAY NEVER WORKS WELL...
WAS NEVER MEANT TO...THOUGH YOU...MEANING HUMANITY...
KEEP TRYING...NOW...THERE IS ANOTHER WAY....BUT YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE IT...

what's that?

YOU KNOW..
.
surrender....right??

BUT NOT 'your' WAY OF SURRENDERING 

you mean I don't get to determine the whole thing from beginning to end???
I'm joking...but not really.
..
THE WORD ARROGANCE COMES TO MIND 

so...pride again...right??

SO...WHATS THE OPPOSITE OF pride?

humility...

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

just. that YOU are the LORD and not me...and sin--my choosing to offend YOU 
by choosing to do what I want and not what I know YOU want or not want- 
means that because YOU ARE.THE LORD....ETERNAL...INFINITE...PERFECT
and I am not any of that....that therefore the punishment is of the same NATURE 
which I can't ever sufficiently accomplish no matter how hard I try...that gerbil wheel thing.
..
SO NOW WHAT?

so...I can't resolve this on my own

NEVER COULD....BUT I HAVE A SOLUTION...

What's that? 

HOW ABOUT I PAY THE PRICE??

why would you do that? you didn't do any of the sinning...

YOU TELL ME..
.
Love?...

ITS WHO I AM...I'VE MADE A WAY FOR YOU...
I HAVE ALREADY 'CARRIED YOIUR SORROWS'...
BORE YOUR PAIN...BY MY STRIPES I HAVE 
HEALED YOU...

Isaiah 53,,,so how do I go from here - my pride -  to there...humility? 
from my way to YOUR WAY???

GRACE....JUST ASK...REMEMBER...
FREEDOM...WHEN YOU ASK ACCCORDING TO MY WILL...YOU RECEIVE....

how do I know what's according to YOUR WILL???

MY WORD AND MY SPIRIT SHOW YOU...SOMETIMES IT 
TAKES A WHILE BECAUSE I HAVE MORE IN MIND FOR YOU 
THAN JUST ANSWERING YOUR QUESTIONS BUT ITS A PROCESS...
YOU'RE ON A JOURNEY....YOU MADE A DECISION TO FOLLOW ME AND 
YOU AND I ARE ON THAT JOURNEY TOGETHER...TO BECOME ONE..
ETERNALLY...INFINITELY...PERFECTLY...HOLY AS I AM HOLY...
ONE STEP AT A TIME...BY GRACE .- NOT BY STRIVING ON YOUR OWN...
TO METE OUT YOUR PUNISHMENT YOUR OWN WAY.WHICH
ONLY ADDS TO YOUR BURDEN....

so...now what?

HOW ABOUT I MAKE IT SIMPLE FOR YOU?

that sounds really good...I like it...

YOU GIVE ME THE REGRETS...ALL THE EMONTIONS / PAIN / SORROW
CONNECTED WITH THEM...ALL THE SELF-INFLICTED
PUNISHMENT...BEATING YOURSELF UP. / SELF-
CONDEMNATION / HATRED / SHAME...AND ASK ME FOR THE 
GRACE YOU NEED TO DO THAT...

it's all GRACE isn't it?

YOU GOT IT...TO HAVE MERCY ON YOURSELF...

forgiving myself  in your Name...

AND BY GRACE TO LET GO OF YOUR CONTROL...ANGER...
ACCEPTING YOUR WEAKNESSES / ASKING ME TO 
CHANGE / HEAL YOU...

and of course THANKING YOU..

YOU WILL STILL REMEMBER THE REGRETS BUT 
THE PAIN WILL BE GONE...

Thank you again for this talk...you knew I needed it...
You always know and You're always ready and 
willing to give me the Grace...Thank You again...

BE AT PEACE...I AM ALWAYS WITH YOU...

Reflection / Discussion:

-How would you summarize how to handle regrets?
-Why is it so hard to forgive yourself?
-What regrets do you have?
-Make a list...topic by topic.
-Ask for the Grace to face and surrender all of it to the Lord
-One by one, In Jesus' Name...Repent / Forgive yourself...Give it all to Jesus...
-Ask for His Healing / Peace...Thanking Him for His Mercy...